I have not felt very inclined to blog since the disastrous 2010 came to a close. It's not that there isn't anything going on, I have plenty to blog about, I actually just wanted to take a couple of days and let 2011 settle in. This year, regardless of the good or bad it may bring, will be better. It will be better because I will be better. This is my year. It is the year I finally take control of my body, my eating habits, my career, and even possibly my runaway emotions. I may not achieve what I want in the end, but the process will be a success.
This is the difference I'm learning. The end results are only so important, but the path along the way can actually make all the difference. I may fail in what I want, but I will try. For a long time I did not pursue that which I was not good at, but all that did was to limit my opportunities. If life is a series of successes and failures then am I not increasingly my likelihood for success by increasing my overall attempts and options? I want to do everything or at least to try to do everything. If I'm a big fat failure already, then what could it possibly hurt?
Who knows what 2011 will bring. Perhaps I will still be married. Maybe I will get to transfer to a grad school back in NYC or even in another city. My finances might even straighten themselves out. I'd like to be in the best physical shape of my adult life. I'd like to be a nicer, more positive person (how's that for an attempt at optimism -- or humor, we'll have to see how it turns out).
Truth is, none of us knows where, what or who we will be in the upcoming year. Even those of you who wish for no changes might find yourselves faced with dramatic turns of event. In the end, it's all a craps shoot really, but one thing is for sure. I'm going to try. This year, the only resolution I have made is to be present in my life. Every decision, every event, every friendship will be one that I have actively participated in and not something that I've let happen to me. It's my life and it's about damn time I got in the game.
About Me
- Ame.
- Charlotte, NC, United States
- My brain never stops and whatever I think tends to come out of my mouth. This daily blog helps me to channel those things maybe better left unsaid to a forum that you can read by choice and I can call them how I see them. Join me each day as I debate the political, social, personal and the ridiculous . . . mostly with myself. Life is full of crazy shit, I just happen to be one of those people that both notice and comment.
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