When life hands you lemons, make lemonade. Or, as per "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" say fuck it and bail. Well, I'm a bail kind of girl and I choose not to invest tremendous amounts of time in people or things that seem only to be heading in a negative direction.
People kind of suck and we pretend this is not true. We all have our own agenda and we will fight for it even if it means we go up against a friend. Yes, you don't want to hurt me, but you want the cute boy more than the friendship. You want to be my confidante, but not more than you want to devote your time to the casual hookup. Friendship, it seems, takes a perpetual backseat to reality. The reality being that we are all out to get what we want and need even if it hurts someone else.
I am a generally loyal person and will defend those I care about through all matter of shitstorms. Sadly, however, sometimes those storms are brought about by opportunistic actions or mindsets. My friendship and loyalty are being tested, and I've got to be honest, I'm just a bit tired.
At what point are we allowed to give up on a friendship? On family? On a relationship? How much do we have to have to hurt? But then again, just because we are hurting is that truly a commentary of the relationship, or our own perspective of it?
I have female friends, male friends, and family, yet there are days when I honestly do not know what is expected of me or what I can count on them for. Life can be incredibly lonely even surrounded by so-called "friends." I believe in friendship wholeheartedly, but then again I also believe in threesomes when conditions are right, so maybe my perspective is off.
Still, the point is, be loyal, stay true, do not say what you don't mean and most of all, man up to those things that might get you into trouble. Life isn't always pleasant and trying to be that way is only going to mean that you end up being disingenuous. Own up to the crap as well as the pleasant. Stop being Suzy fucking Sunshine and recognize that an opinion is a good thing.
Sometimes being the girl with an ever present opinion is a lonely place to be. Even more so when those you think are friends turn out to be plastic. So enjoy your reign and your romp, but remember you are alone because you have no value in the deeper sense. Yours will be a long road
About Me
- Ame.
- Charlotte, NC, United States
- My brain never stops and whatever I think tends to come out of my mouth. This daily blog helps me to channel those things maybe better left unsaid to a forum that you can read by choice and I can call them how I see them. Join me each day as I debate the political, social, personal and the ridiculous . . . mostly with myself. Life is full of crazy shit, I just happen to be one of those people that both notice and comment.
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